Archive for May, 2010

Stairway to Heaven

May 23rd, 2010

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I started taking GUITAR LESSONS recently, and my boyfriend was giving me a hard time about it. Did you ask him to teach you ‘Stairway to Heaven’? Not exactly. But it occurred to me that a healing path kind of feels like one to an extent. In the beginning, I would get frustrated. I would go through some MONUMENTAL ORDEAL and think hooray! Now, that I’ve been through all that I’m going to be back to normal again. Inevitably, I would be disappointed. It would seem like things were getting better. Then I’d have what would seem to be a big SETBACK. How can this be happening, I’d think? I’ve been doing everything right. Why does this keep happening?

Now that more time has passed, I have the benefit of hindsight. One thing that I’m realizing is a person recovering from chronic illness should have more realistic expectations. For one, everything is a process. Kind of like this VIDEO that RAWDAWG RORY posted recently (I love Rawdawg Rory). When you’re going through the process, it seems never-ending at times. But when you look backwards, it’s really amazing how the body sort of prioritizes things. It’s so elegant. It innately knows what to tackle first. Admittedly, when it was all happening, I had no idea what was going on. Looking back though, it makes a lot of sense.

Needless to say, I climbed another stair last week. The during part was pretty intense. I knew something was up when I lost my (usually voracious) appetite. At first, I thought this was a cue to juice fast. But I think my body had other things in mind. One thing I’ve learned over time is to submit to the elegant wisdom and to just try to support as much as possible. So, I rode the wave. This one had some pretty rough waters (nausea, chills, vomiting, supernaps, fatigue, bizarre skin eruptions, and you know the drill). But I’m feeling better now. My immune system has been kind of BEATEN DOWN until recently. I finally started getting normal numbers in the last month or so. Now it’s maybe strong enough to start cleaning house again. And I feel like I’ve finally knocked my CANDIDA infection into submission somewhat. I suspect that was what a lot of that episode was about. So I’m really focused on keeping it under control until I get my digestion in order. I’ve been on a ZERO SUGAR kick (no sweeteners, fruits, dates etc.). Strangely, it’s all happening very naturally and without much fussing. I haven’t had any difficult cravings. It just seems like what I’m supposed to do. To me, that is a sign that this is either an episode of the twilight zone or some kind of bizarre healing crisis!

I’ve also been ADDICTED to this lately. Strangely, I HATED it until about a week ago. It’s the fermented kimchee at ECOPOLITAN (Minneapolis’ raw food restaurant).

I’ve been kind of splurging a little lately. My current kitchen is kind of small and being shared with a carnivore (NOT THAT THERE’S ANYTHING WRONG WITH THAT). I recently cleaned a huge puddle of rotten deli meat juice out of the vegetable drawer. So anyway, this is probably the most I’ve eaten at Ecopolitan in my entire life. Here is their tostada plate.

taco salad
The taco salad is great too.

I meant to take a picture of the sausage pizza, but umm…I was busy. I can honestly say that that was the only pizza I’ve ever liked (except maybe THIS one). It really tastes like sausage.

So, I guess you could say I had a bit of a breakthrough recently. On a lot of levels. I’ve been getting a steady stream of good news this week. More on that later…


Garden Laboratory

May 9th, 2010

garden lab
Well, the weather hasn’t exactly been cooperating with our garden plans thus far. As a result, we have quite the burgeoning garden laboratory going now. We started a fairly extensive batch of SEEDLINGS a few weeks ago (though most of them are still pretty small and frail).

plant saleSo much like LAST YEAR, I went to the infamous FRIENDS SCHOOL PLANT SALE to pad our repertoire. The plant sale is AMAZING. They have everything you could possibly think of. I went with good intentions, but it’s difficult to draw parameters around the endless possibilities. Just think of all the food I could make!  I mean a girl could really go balls to the wall gourmet with so much to work with!

plant sale
Just to give you an idea of why my boyfriend was so annoyed with me, here is a list of all the plants I got:

Black Cumin
Culantro (not cilantro…I don’t know either)
Lavender, Fred Boutin
Thai Basil, Siam Queen
Sweet Basil
Milk Thistle
Mint, Spearmint
Mint, Chocolate Mint
Papalo (described as cilantro on steroids)
Parsley, Curly
Parsley, Italian
African Blue Basil
Boxcar Willie Tomato
Sweet Banana Pepper
Caspian Pink Tomato
Coyote Tomato
Habanero Pepper, Chocolate
Habanero Pepper, Orange
Heirloom Lettuce, Forellenschluss

seedlingsI should note that this was AFTER we had already purchased a wide variety of lettuces/greens (curly kale, dino kale, swiss chard, and a few butter lettuce varieties). Where I’m going to find room to plant all these is anybody’s guess. But every raw food catering business needs all this! Right?! We did inherit an extra bed this year at the COMMUNITY GARDEN that needs some TLC. Someone let it overgrow with weeds. So it kind of needs a nanny for a year. But I think I’m still going to need to get creative..

sq ft garden
Here’s a draft of our SQUARE FOOD GARDEN grid. The blank boxes represent the number of plants I was SUPPOSED to get at the plant sale. (He should have known he was sending me on MISSION IMPOSSIBLE). 🙂

goji bush
In other news, look how well my GOJI bush is doing! ANTHONY would be so proud…


Watching the Future Unfold

May 7th, 2010

Leftovers are great for contemplating the future. Less work and business leaves more time for philosophy. This was a variation of a salad I made for my TASTING EVENT.

two fist
My boyfriend took this beautiful picture. It looks innocuous enough, but it’s actually a huge milestone in our juicing experience. In the past, our tendency would be to mix these drinks together to make sludge. My boyfriend is all about maximizing nutritional density which I can appreciate. But not when it tastes bad. Yesterday I convinced him to make two separate drinks, and they were AMAZING! One was a spicy green concoction with lime, cucumber, ginger, cilantro, and wheatgrass. The other was lime, carrot, and ginger. Two great tastes that DON’T taste great together. 🙂

wheatgrass ointment
Wheatgrass is also great for healing scars. My overly active immune system has a proclivity towards scarring. Little scrapes take months to heal. Wheatgrass noticeably improves the healing process. Apparently, they used to use it for wound healing way back when.

blossomsIt’s supposed to snow tonight! That’s Minnesota weather for you. The CHERRY BLOSSOMS have already come and gone, and now it’s going to snow. My boyfriend took this picture of me with the infamous blossoms to send to my mom.  Speaking of (SCREAMING) CHERRY BLOSSOMS, I’ve started playing guitar again. I brought my guitar down to OKLAHOMA with good intentions, but I was a lot busier than I thought I would be! It’s good to be back in my element again.
setlist I played a solo show last week, and my boyfriend took a picture of the setlist on my arm. Since my health isn’t really good enough yet to pursue my musical ambitions fully, I decided to start working on my chops. Yesterday was my first guitar lesson with my favorite guitar player in Minneapolis! You can check out his cool, green guitar in this VIDEO. I’m pretty sure that having a green guitar is eco-friendly! 🙂

In the meantime, I am patiently waiting for the future to unfold. Not as patiently as I would like, mind you. The hardest part about change (for me) is that it always seems to take longer than you think it should. It’s human nature, I think, to want to fill in the gap that you have to leave open for it. It feels so uncertain and vulnerable sometimes that a person yearns for the comfort of certainty. But I’m determined this time to let things play out as they should. I have a good feeling that everything is going to work out beautifully. I just need to give things their due time and space to unfold.

I got some nods of affirmation this week. I was listed on MASALA (the finest mix of holistic living blogs) in the ‘friends’ category, and I was also listed as one of the TOP 50 RAW FOOD BLOGS! HOORAY!


Juice Fasting and Detoxification

May 3rd, 2010

A friend of mine sent me a message out of the blue recently. He said he was cleaning his house, and he came across this book that he thought I might like. ‘Sure, I’ll take it,’ I said. He sent me this.

Honestly, I haven’t really felt up to anything like this. I’ve had to work through a lot of crud the last few years, and this innately has felt like too much for me. But, it’s been coming up a lot lately. And the book is kind of absorbing to me. I’m also at a point right now where I really feel like I need to break through some barriers. Being back in my old context has caused a number of health issues to resurface that frankly kind of scare me. I really need to cut the slop out of my system if I’m going to move out of this space. I’m not sure if this is the answer for me. But it seems attractive at the moment. My boyfriend has been talking about getting a HUROM. Maybe the forces are aligning for me? Time will tell…