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The Mind-Body Connection


May 26th, 2011

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It’s amazing at times how things come together. Things which are seemingly unrelated coincide uncannily with other things that your conscious mind sees as separate. It makes you realize who’s really running the show sometimes. This is a pic from my continuing window series, THE VIEW FROM MY CHEF’S TABLE.

wakingThis week, the recurring theme in my subconscious is the mind-body connection. It all started innocently enough. I got a message from my boyfriend’s sister, Julie. She started yoga this week. She needed a ride, and I offered to take her. Normally, it would be a bit of a trek, but this week in particular it was meant to be. I was scheduled to get my MRI close by at around the time she needed to go. PLUS, this was a very special yoga class. An adaptive yoga class taught by MATTHEW SANFORD. After my CAR CRASH, I came across his truly inspiring story. He was paralyzed in a horrible crash at the age of 13. This story chronicles his healing journey. He is now an expert on the mind-body connection, and he teaches adaptive yoga for people with disabilities. Julie has spina bifida. I had mentioned the book to her at the time, and she had heard of Matthew Sanford.  That little seed sprouted into her signing up for his class.  Monday just so happened to be the day of her first class and my MRI. An interesting coincidence (as you’ll come to see).

matthew sanford
Matthew Sanford was fascinating. I was too shy to go talk to him, but I was very impressed with him. He had very radiant energy. Limitless. That’s the first thing you notice about him when he comes into the room. This is a topic which he touched on in his book and the class. That yoga helped him to become conscious of this energy and how it moved through his body. He also talks a lot about the mind-body connection (which I find fascinating).

crash
After the CRASH, an interesting thing happened to me (which Matthew Sanford describes in his book). Many survivors of these types of accidents speak of this phenomenon. I became very euphoric. I giggled a lot. People would ask me why I was so giddy after being in a crash. Things that were supposed to hurt..didn’t. I just didn’t feel anything. Because of my LIVER ISSUES, I wasn’t really able to take any of the pain medications that were prescribed. And I think this only heightened a sort of natural endorphin response. I felt very connected to something otherworldly. I had the sense that there were guardian angels watching over me.

chair
The mechanics of the crash were truly awe inspiring to me. The door that received the impact of the crash came to the middle of the steering wheel. I was sitting in the driver’s seat. In this seat. It was hard for me to fathom how I survived this crash short of a miracle.

aura
Not long after this happened, I had a picture of my aura taken on a whim. I’m generally kind of skeptical about this kind of thing. But the outcome was interesting. The girl asked me if I was healing from some major illness, and I said ‘Yes. Why do you ask?’ She said my aura was all white which usually means the body is in a major healing crisis. They also had designation for how much of you manifested as body, mind, and spirit. I was 0% body, 1% mind, and 99% spirit. Matthew Sanford speaks a lot in his book of disconnecting from his body when things became too painful. That much of his healing journey involved him figuring out how to reconnect with his broken body on a conscious level. That you separate from your body as a protective mechanism. And that in going back to it, you reconnect with the pain and memories of what happened to it. I feel like I have been going through a process of this ever since the crash. And it has been hitting me over the head this week.

fissure
Yesterday, I went in to get the results of my MRI. This isn’t actually mine, but this is what it looked like. What I found out was that I have a ‘fissure’. I’ve never heard of this. Apparently, this means that one of the discs between my L4/L5 vertebrae (the one picture here) is ripped. The gelatin-like stuff inside is leaking out and bulging into my spinal cord. This is causing some nerve problems where my leg goes numb, etc. What’s interesting is that I believe that this natural endorphin response/disconnect from my body has allowed me to tolerate the pain of this injury really well. I’m not even consciously aware that I am doing it. But I think the stress of doing this all the time is causing me to have headaches. I should qualify this statement with the fact that I have no scientific basis for saying this. It’s just my instinct. I am reconnecting with my body little by little! And it is teaching me some very important lessons. I’ll keep you posted on my progress…

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Day 75. The Zen Thing


February 26th, 2011

chard rolls
Well, today was day 75 of my BIKRAM YOGA CHALLENGE. It has been a wild ride. But an enlightening one. I’ve been playing this down (mostly out of laziness about posting), but I’ve been doing a raw food challenge too. Not for as long. Just since the first of the year. But the combo has clearly been having an impact on the congestion in my body. This was a swiss chard roll with a little cucumber garnish I made last week. Another recipe from CHARLIE TROTTER’S BOOK.

camel
This is the camel pose. It was my nemesis when I FIRST STARTED taking Bikram Yoga. I talked about it during my 15 seconds of fame (check out my interview). Did I mention that I’m the YOGI OF THE MONTH? Yep. AND I was on the NEWS DOING YOGA too. (I’m the one with the tattoo.)  I’m going global!   :)

cukes
I was telling my friend, WILL (who just finished 60 DAYS YESTERDAY) about this zen thing that kicked in right about the sixty day mark. It’s not that yoga got easier really. But maybe I was more indifferent to it. Or adapted to it. Or something. But it just started whizzing by. Instead of being kind of torturous. Maybe I’ve gotten in the moment? I think it coincides with me being more ‘tuned in’.

savasanaI’ve been starting to have interesting revelations about myself. This is my big one for this week. Bikram class has 26 postures and two breathing exercises. But those postures are broken down into series. There’s a standing series and a floor series. The last posture in the standing series is called Tree Pose. Every time I attempt that pose, I fall. The same way. It’s like I can get down into it, but once I’m there I realize that I’m extremely off kilter. And the inevitable happens. After this pose, we have a reprieve where we go into this pose, savasana (or dead body pose). Seems simple, right? WRONG! After I crashed and burned in tree pose the other day, I was lying there (just like this) thinking to myself, ‘Why does this happen every time? I don’t get it. I wonder if my alignment is messed up. Maybe I’m maligned and I’m not aware of it.’ Just as this thought was running through my mind, my yoga teacher (Martha) walked up to me and started adjusting my alignment!! How freaky is that? She said it’s actually gotten a lot better, and it was 50% worse when I started. I was shocked. My body is still in the shape of the IMPACT, and I was completely unaware. Amazing.

goji maca bars
These GOJI MACA energy bars are great for yogis on the go. Aren’t they pretty? It’s a MATTHEW KENNEY recipe. They went over surprisingly well at the guitar store too. (I get around).

barfer
Last but not least, this is another deceptive pose. You basically lie on your stomach and raise one leg at a time to a 45 degree angle. Seems really straightforward, right? You would think so. But truth be told, I’ve swallowed my own barf TWICE now in this pose. I don’t know why this is, but my theory is that is kinda squishes your LIVER. And I have a BAD LIVER (This band was huge when I lived in Austin. Who knew I would one day be one of them).

That’s my update for now. I’ll check in with you later…

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Day 60. Bikram Yoga Challenge


February 11th, 2011

yoga bag
Well, I reached a big landmark today. It was my 60th day in a row of Bikram Yoga. All I can say is WOW. It’s been an interesting ride. I initally EMBARKED ON THIS ADVENTURE as a means of addressing a number of health issues. I wasn’t sure what to expect in the beginning. I wasn’t even sure if I could do it. I was reluctant to commit to it. The outcome was not at all what I was expecting, but I can say for sure that it has had a positive impact on my issues.

triangle poseThis is triangle pose, and it is my big triumph so far. When I started, I couldn’t do this pose at all. This pose is all about hip muscles for stability. My hip muscles were really weak starting back (as I BROKE MY PELVIS). My physical therapist really worked with me on my hip muscles, and now look! This pose gives me hope that I can resolve all my issues eventually. I have to admit though that the left side is not so pretty. But it’s getting there. My left side sustained most of the impact in the CRASH. So there’s a lot to work out there. But the muscles on both sides get weak when you’re not walking.  So, I couldn’t do it either way at first.  Maybe next time I check in, I’ll have the left side nailed down.

standing head to kneeThis is a pose that I’m still working with. It’s my nemesis right now. It’s standing head to knee pose. I can actually kick my leg out alright, but I don’t have much stamina or stability on one leg. I think a lot of this harkens back to my hip issues. But there’s some wankiness in my lower back too that I haven’t figured out yet. This pose starts out with the extended leg bent. Then, you kick it out (like in this picture). Once you get good there, you touch your forehead to your knee. Obviously, I’m not there yet. The first part of this posture (bent leg) feels really good for my lower back. It’s stretching out something in a good way. This yoga has been stretching out a lot of bad juju in good ways.

magnet Here is sweaty, stinky me with my completely filled in magnet! I’m actually shocked that I made it to this point. It was definitely challenging on a number of levels. The detox is brutal. I’m not going to lie. It’s as hard as it is rewarding. I actually found out I have an ulcer in the middle of this challenge, and I was really tempted to stop. But I didn’t. I thought about it a lot. The main issue motivating me to do this is that I have chronic pain from the impact of the crash. It’s mostly caused by super tweaked muscles. My doctor recommended trigger point injections for the pain. I’m really reluctant to try that though as I have a lot of issues with my LIVER. I mean, I can’t even eat food with additives. So as you might imagine, medicines of any kind are not without unpleasant consequences. I was kind of hoping that I would have worked through the pain and back to normal at the end of sixty days. That may have been an overly optimistic expectation. BUT things are definitely starting to loosen up. The other day, I had my massage therapy, and I cried the whole time. This sounds bad, but it’s actually GREAT. Things are finally starting to break up a bit. In the beginning, my massage therapist said she’d be bearing all her weight into me, and I wouldn’t feel a thing.

At my last appointment, I asked my doctor if the pain was an issue that would go away eventually or if it was permanent. He didn’t really answer. He kind of changed the subject.  I’m interpreting that as meaning that I’m really going to have to work on this. It’s not going to come easy.  But basically, yoga is what is keeping me off pain meds right now.  If I stop, I’ll have to find some other way of managing the pain.  My thought was that whatever that was would be just as stressful to my body (if not more) as yoga.  So, I decided to just stick with it.  Sometimes you have to go through the fire.  There is no other way.  It might hurt.  You might get burned.  But the fire will transform you.  And maybe that’s a beautiful thing.  Not something to be afraid of.  The fire is where all the important lessons are.

That’s what I keep telling myself anyway.

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Day 36. Bikram Yoga Challenge


January 18th, 2011

snow yogi
This has been the story of my life these days…tromping through snow to get to yoga! We have had a ridiculous amount of snow this year. I’m scared to see what happens when it all finally melts.

I’ve been meeting some really cool people at the yoga studio. This is WILL. He’s hilarious! He’s also doing a yoga challenge. So, we are like comrades in arms. You should check out his blog.

seacress
This YOGA CHALLENGE has been intense!! But in a good way. I’ve been helping things along with my uber clean diet. This is a watercress/seaweed salad that I made yesterday. I got the recipe from SARMA’S book, and it is a winner! I have to tell you that raw food plus bikram yoga equals very powerful detox, to be sure. I’ve been going through a lot…from sore muscles to amazingly efficient elimination to feeling ill to feeling wonderful to unbelievable progress with my health issues. Admittedly, I’m holding up better than I thought I would. In some ways, I wish that progress was a little faster. But I know that my body is going at MY pace. If it went any faster, I think I would be overwhelmed.

halfmoonThis is the half moon pose, and it is my nemesis (for a lot of reasons). It’s the second pose in the series. It looks easy enough. But for me, it’s hard. First off, it’s early in the series. So, I’m still stiff. It’s very hard for me to lift my arms over my head like that the first time around (we do each posture twice). I have a lot of muscle pain from my ACCIDENT in my upper back and neck. It’s actually improved a lot since I started this challenge. In the beginning it was more widespread and diffuse. Now, it seems more focused. Like a lot of the milder tension has released a little. Now I’m left with the most stubborn spots. The other issue is that according to my teacher, Martha, there are many small muscles in the pelvis that stabilize you in this side stretch. Since I was on crutches/walker for some time, these muscles are really weak. This pose starts with a left and right side stretch and then progresses to a front and back stretch. Sounds pretty straightforward, right? You would think so. But OMG. It’s hard!! My lower back is kind of a wreck right now.

standing bowThis is the standing bow. I’ve actually been making good progress on this pose the last week or so. It really stretches out the shoulder surprisingly. So to me, it feels really good. The professional yogis do this pose and it looks like a sideways split. Right now, I can NOT fathom how they do that. But it’s amazingly inspirational. I have a ways to go before I get to that point. But I can see my foot coming up behind my head when I look in the mirror. So, I’ve reached the first goal. Yay!

chalupa
I’ve been eating really well to support the challenge, and I have to say it doesn’t feel difficult at all to me. Now that I have the repertoire, I feel like I’m really hitting a stride with my food prep. Here are some chalupas I made the other day.

pizza
This is a raw pizza. I garnished it with marinated mushroom, COCONUT JERKY, and pineapple for a hawaiian feel (I’m in denial about the snow). Healthwise, I’ve been noticing lots of changes. My muscle tension is slowly dissipating. I hoped that I would have worked through most of it by now. But alas, it is a lot worse than you can tell when you’re all numb. But it is changing. So I’m determined to stick it out until I get ahead of it. My liver has been going through a lot. If you have liver issues like me, I should warn you that I definitely had to do a lot of work on my liver to work up to this. My yoga teacher even noticed. She said that it seemed like I had a lot of gunk to work through at first. I was really surprised that she would observe that. Really intuitive! The liver is definitely working things out. Like, I have this constant burp that comes and goes in class (a symptom that first appeared when I was in the HOSPITAL with my liver issues). I also have had some healing crises like an episode of the chills and a severe episode of heartburn that wasn’t food related (liver symptoms). But I went into see my doctor last week (to follow up on my TEST RESULTS – perhaps a topic which is worthy of it’s own post). She checked my liver numbers, and they were good. So despite the challenges, I seem to be staying on top of things. And my doctor encouraged me to keep doing what I was doing. So, I think I will. I’ll keep you posted…

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New Year’s Rampage


January 4th, 2011

kombucha
Happy New Year! It’s hard to believe that another year has gone by. At this time last year, I was just STARTING ADVANCED INSTRUCTION at 105 DEGREES. It’s so interesting to look back and reflect on YEARS PAST and see how PERCEPTIONS have changed and how things have unfolded. Well, last year I had a very reasonable goal which I’ve made significant progress on. This year, I’m on a rampage! It started a few weeks ago with a YOGA CHALLENGE. I gave myself a few weeks to acclimate to that before I really started focusing in on my diet.

fridge
This week is all about stockpiling goodies for my fridge and kitchen. Here you can see the pomegranate kombucha I made for my boyfriend (a hopeless addict who drinks at least two of these a day). I also made a big stash of SPROUTS. My diet is actually pretty good most of the time. Since I suffer from some DIGESTIVE ISSUES, I can’t really stray very far from a certain level of enlightenment, so to speak. But I do notice that I tend to stray towards going out to eat and getting comfortable with a little too much slop in the system. It’s amazing when you really clean things up. You realize what a difference it makes.

marinating
Here I am marinating a variation of the coconut bacon in ANI PHYO’S NEW BOOK. She uses this in tons of recipes. So it’s great to have around. Plus, I had a huge amount of coconut meat leftover from making a big batch of KEFIR.


My version is quite a bit spicier than hers. So I think of it more like a jerky.

kimchee
I also made a big batch of kimchee (which I am only allowed to eat when my boyfriend is NOT home). This is what it looks like when it’s just made.

kimchee
After it ferments, it turns pink. This year, I am much more savvy with the fermented foods which interestingly was the answer to my quest from LAST YEAR (to get my Candida under control).

peppers
Yesterday, I started pickling these peppers (another recipe from ANI PHYO’S book). She has a really nice section on kimchee in her book with authentic asian recipes. I like that!

onion bread
My boyfriend has been getting really involved too (which makes it so fun and creative). Yesterday, he made this AMAZING onion bread with pineapple pieces in it. He was inspired by VICKI (a fellow student at 105 Degrees). She made a recipe similar to this for her final project. It is SO DELICIOUS!! I was very impressed.

rampageIn other news, my YOGA CHALLENGE is going well so far. I’m just starting week four right now. It’s so interesting how things evolve from week to week. I’m still having a lot of pain and tension in my muscles but it has loosened up A LOT since I started. This week, I made the most progress on the standing bow pose. Actually, both of the bow poses are starting to open up for me. Right now, I’m having the most trouble with Standing Head to Knee pose (this will take a WHILE) and Half Moon Pose. I have a lot of issues with my lower back. I think there are a lot of muscles in that area that have gotten weak and out of whack. It really becomes obvious in these poses. My teacher, Martha, said that there are many small stabilizing muscles in the pelvis (which I BROKE) which will impact this pose as well. So I think I have my work cut out for me on that one. The other thing I’m noticing this week is massive detox. Yesterday was rather intense. But letting go of what’s not working for me is what this challenge is all about. So bring it on!

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The Holidaze


December 26th, 2010

presents
Look what Santa left under my tree? OK. It wasn’t really Santa. It was my boyfriend. He knew just what to get. I have been wanting that ANI PHYO book since it came out. But he also found another one which I haven’t seen before. It’s kind of nice. It’s organized according to ethnic groups: Italian food, Middle Eastern food, Asian food (kind of like the stations at 105 DEGREES).

kim chee
Speaking of ethnic food. I’ve been hooked on this kimchee lately. Now that my garden is in hibernation, it’s time for FERMENTATION projects. I’ve got all manner of these going at the moment. Pomegranate kefir is another favorite right now. My friend, Helen, and I made a VIDEO which I released recently explaining how to make this (as well as yogurt and cheese). AND there still a few days left to enter the kefir kit giveaway if you haven’t seen it yet (check the video for details).

boots
This is another one of my Christmas presents (from my Mom). I LOVE these boots!!

boots
And they are coming in more than a little bit handy now. That’s for sure. Winters up here are quite a bit more brutal than the pseudo winters I grew up with in Texas. In Texas, boots are more of a fashion statement than a necessity. I remember coming home for Christmas with blue toes the first year I lived here. I don’t think my mother was very happy to see that because she has gotten me new boots for Christmas pretty consistently since I’ve lived here. :)

ice palace
The Minneapolis library looks kinda of like an ice palace with all of this snow. I took this picture while I was switching buses the other day on my way to yoga. Speaking of, I just finished day 14 of my BIKRAM YOGA CHALLENGE. It definitely feels like my body is doing some power healing right now. This week, the issues that I’m noticing more are my hamstrings on my left side right where they connect to my hip. This makes a lot of sense as I’ve had to do a lot of physical therapy on muscles that attach to my hip. It’s funny how unaware of these muscles I was before my ACCIDENT. I’m also noticing my rib cage a lot. It just feels sensitive and bruised. Not in any particular part of my rib cage. It’s more like the whole thing. This makes sense too as I broke a couple ribs, this part of my body was clearly subjected to some trauma. It’s peculiar though. It’s almost like emotional baggage that my rib cage is holding on to. Or something. It’s hard to describe. The other thing I’ve noticed is that I am drinking a LOT more water. I can’t drink enough. The air here in winter is BONE DRY. So today we got a humidifier. That should help with that. I will keep you posted on my progress. I am going to start ramping up the raw food quotient as well now that I’ve acclimated somewhat to the yoga. Those recipe books are going to come in handy!

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Bikram Yoga Challenge


December 19th, 2010

yoga sign
As you might have guessed from my LAST POST, this is the time of year when Minnesotans switch up their exercise routines. I have been finding myself rather addicted to BIKRAM YOGA lately.

walker
If you have been following my blog for a while, you might have heard about some of the health lessons I’ve been working through lately. Last summer, I was in an ACCIDENT. I sustained a number of injuries in the crash including three pelvic fractures and some broken ribs.

hospital
Prior to that, I had worked through a number of complications related to a toxic exposure. It’s kind of a LONG STORY. But essentially, I had a severe exposure which unfolded into a colorfully epic saga involving seemingly every organ system in my body. The lastest drama is that I’ve now tested positive for rheumatoid factor twice (the antibody seen in patients with rheumatoid arthritis, an autoimmune disease). Now before you get too worried, I actually had a SIMILAR DRAMA to this last year when I tested positive for ANA twice (an antibody seen in patients with lupus, another form of autoimmune disease). We’re still figuring out what this means. The exposure that happened to me is actually pretty unusual. So, it’s difficult to predict how things will evolve. I’ve personally gotten kind of detached from the outcome at this point (this has been going on for four and a half years – YAWN. I’m over it). Whatever it is, it’s just a name. In a lot of ways, I think the mystery is kind of a blessing. As long as the future is unknown, the possibilities for healing are limitless. But what I can say for sure is that I have issues. Liver issues. And autoimmune issues.

studio
This is perhaps why I find bikram yoga so compelling. Bikram yoga class consists of a series of twenty six postures and two breathing exercises which are practiced in a room heated to 105 DEGREES! Isn’t that an interesting coincidence? (The same temperature that my CULINARY ACADEMY was named after). The heat does AMAZING things for my muscles. I have had a lot of muscle pain since the accident. I distinctly remember the moment of impact. It was like this incredible amount of energy was transferred to my body in an instant. I remember feeling like every cell in my body was spinning in overdrive. For months after the crash, I couldn’t really feel anything. I was in the ‘beyond pain’ state where the muscles just clamp down. The process of restoring them to a normal state of tension requires you to work through the pain little by little. I can say that without a doubt, this form of yoga is having a huge impact on this issue! I can’t get enough. I go to class and find relief for a few hours. Then, I wake up the next day and need another fix. It’s a good kind of addiction.

awkward pose
I’ve noticed a lot of changes with this pose this week too. This is awkward pose. You sit down in an imaginary chair and try to lean back as far as you can. This pose uses a lot of muscles which got really weak during my sedentary phase of healing. Back muscles and hip muscles. Triangle pose is another one that uses those muscles a lot. I’ve made a lot of progress on these two already.

window sill
I feel like this yoga is having a big impact on the autoimmune issues as well (a revelation that perhaps deserves it’s own post). I have decided this winter to dedicate myself to the next phase of my healing, and my instinct is that this is it!

studio lobby
Luckily for me, Minneapolis is home to a really wonderful BIKRAM YOGA STUDIO owned by Martha and Eric Williams. I just purchased an unlimited pass there. Many Bikram studios offer these ’30/60/100 Day Challenges’ as a motivator for students. Right now, I’m feeling very motivated to practice yoga as it is acting as a pain reliever for me. I’m not sure if my own challenge will conform to the 30/60/100 day model. But, I am starting a challenge of my own. Since I have a number of medical issues, I am hesitant to commit myself to one of these numbers as I don’t want the number to take precedence over my focus on healing. But, I am committed to seeing how the yoga can impact my health issues. And I appreciate and respect the discipline that goes along with the challenges. I just want to be gentle with myself. Today was my seventh day in a row. I am noticing lots of positive changes already. I will keep you posted on my progress…

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Indian Summer


October 13th, 2010

bed
We have had some freakishly warm weather (for Minnesota) the last week or so and I am LOVING it. I missed a lot of summer this year (as I was RECOVERING my accident). So now is my chance to soak it all up. Consequently, my garden is a little wild this year (not that there’s anything wrong with that).

flower sign
One of my fellow gardeners grew a communal bed of flowers! How lovely is that? It sad to say goodbye to gardening season.

garden harvest
I have really gotten into juicing garden harvest. It’s so luxurious (esp. when you consider how much it would be to BUY all this).

miss
My physical therapy right now involves BIKE RIDING. This is a scene from my bike ride to the garden. I have to cross the mighty Mississippi River to get there. (It seems like a trek, but before you get too impressed I should mention that it’s not actually that far. And I have to walk my bike part of the way. But I’m getting there).

green juice
Still, things are definitely looking up out here. I’m moving a little slow these days, but you know what they say about slow and steady…I’m just saying!

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Rockin' the Crutches


July 27th, 2010

giant zucchini
Look at this giant zucchini we picked from our GARDEN the other day. It weighed three and a half pounds! Not being able to get down on the ground is lending itself to more weeds and bigger vegetables this year.

stiar steppingHere is an action shot of me taking the stairs. My boyfriend has been documenting this period very thoroughly. :) I’m actually getting around surprisingly well. Yesterday, I went to the grocery store by myself and pushed a cart around the whole store. I wouldn’t really recommend it, but I got ‘er done. I’ve been working on a very special project that I will tell you about tomorrow.
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backstage
In the meantime, I’ve been going to work with my boyfriend a lot. Hanging out backstage at shows…

sound girl
…Hogging chairs in the sound booth…

sitting
…And playing my first show sitting down.

Life is good.

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Feeling the Love


July 26th, 2010

sam cartoon
Look at this lovely cartoon that came on a package in my mail recently. It’s from non other than Sam, my half-Asian soul sister out West.

recovery
Being a BROKEN HIPSTER does have it’s perks. It affords a person time for philosophizing and getting lovely packages in the mail.

snacks
Look at these yummy snacks I got in the mail for DEBBIE DOES RAW!! The raw cheeze-its were featured in this VIDEO on RAW MODEL ANTHONY’S page.

I can tell you that mine didn’t last long either. You should try some…

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